Struggling...

We have the absolute best family in the world. Through the extreme pain of these last several days they have been there for every second when we have needed them most. We are so lucky even though it seems like we are so unlucky at the same time. Everyone keeps saying that this happens because We are strong but it makes me wonder what they see. I know we will make it through it but I just keep thinking that Sawyer should be here with us. Like I said he is perfect and that is hat makes it so hard. It is hard to think that it was literally a couple of days ago we were hugging and kissing him. We keep praying for strength and that we will understand thy will.